現実(Reality)
...Ah I started again. In a few seconds, I will fall and it will get darker, how many times is it now? I have started to get tired...It is gone dark and silent again, I can feel it, I am back in that place. And like always no matter how hard I try I cannot open my eyes but I can clearly see myself floating inside the deep dark ocean. I am stuck there, I hate it or I used to hate it. Every time I was in that deep, dark hole stuck without a word, help or reason it would frustrate the hell out of me. So many thoughts would flood my mind - Why does it happen to me?!.. I look so lonely and scared, can someone save me, please?!.. I will do anything to escape, please save me...What did I do so wrong?... Let me die, no one cares either way...If I get lost here forever it would not matter, it is better this way...You do not deserve to live...I knew it! this is what happens when I get happy... I want to die... Let me die already!... I do not wish to live in this crappy world where every day I